Emma at 5.5 years and Eden at 2.5 Emma at almost 4 years, Eden at 11 months. I remember this moment like it was yesterday — sun coming in perfectly through their window and everyone cooperated. Time passes in the blink of an eye. Thankfully we have photos! And thankfully I have been diligent about…
Category: Kazakhstan Adoption Decision
In the Beginning
I mentioned it was our 10 year anniversay in December. Laughably, we finally got our wedding video edited when we were married 9 years. So it’s sort of still fresh for me, thankfully, because I actually enjoy it so much. My friend, our esteemed editor, was able to upload two short videos to YouTube the…
Life is but a dream
I haven’t stopped thinking of Catalina (www.catabaia.blogspot.com) who has been in Kaz now one week. Going thinking she would be bringing home one child and yet she will be coming home with a brother and sister, all because this little girl jumped right into her arms and chose her. In all my 11 months of…
Acting “As If”
I will not join in the panic mode but, as of yesterday, it looks like Kazakhstan is TEMPORARILY closed to U.S. adoptions (if you have not already submitted your dossier). Just at a time when my thoughts are taking me closer to decision time. Does this mean weeks, months, years? I contacted the agency I…
Hope
Journey Home, the agency we are strongly considering using, wrote this to me today: “Its a pleasure Stephanie, and you most certainly should maintain hope!!! The premise surrounding the “so called” closure, which still cannot be confirmed, is not a show stopping “Kaz is closed for adoption”, its a “slow down and let them catch…
Until then …
All is clarified. It’s just the DC Embassy that temporarily SUSPENDED taking in any more US dossiers. It was a discomfort that was short lived. And I felt such strong convictions to what I really wanted. I spoke to Gary last night. It’s just so frustrating. There is not much more I can do right…
Quote for My Life
“I will not die an unlived life. I will not live in fear of falling or catching fire. I choose to inhabit my days, to allow my living to open me, to make me less afraid, more accessible, to loosen my heart until it becomes a wing, a torch, a promise. I choose to risk…
American Sign Language
While I take a break from writing about our decision, I do find it hard to stay away completely. I have become addicted to my blog in all its glory. American Sign Language — it’s an important topic to me, one that I have seen come up in adoption forums quite a bit recently. Over…
First Official Document
Today I went into Manhattan with my dad and got my first official document needed for my dossier. The fact was that I needed to replace my missing marriage certificate for many years already, and at this point didn’t want to wait the 8 weeks if I did it via mail. From my research, I…
Passage of Time
I’m grieving over old baby clothing. I came across some clothing stored away that I had not seen in two years. Why then the sudden sense of loss when I realized it was time to relinquish these adorable outfits and onesies to people who might need them more? After Emma was born, I kept all…