I am not a prayerful person in the way that others might be, but the following thoughts in the form of a prayer to G-d seem to keep pushing themselves through the corners of my mind almost every day.
G-d, please keep our child safe and healthy. Please keep him happy and well cared for while he waits. Please help our child to recognize when he meets us that we are his forever family; please let us recognize, even if things don’t look so familiar at the onset, that he is our son. Please let love reign over all else. Please allow us to keep an open mind. Please allow this little Karp baby to make himself known. Please overflow our hearts with love and guidance and compassion. Please provide us with the right resources when he comes home. I pray that our paperwork journey, and then the physical journey to meet him, continues to go smoothly. Please help us work out the travel logistics in our mind and keep in mind the health and safety of Emma and Eden. G-d, please let it one day become even clearer to us and those who love us that this was the perfect way to add to our family. That the path of my life was set before I even knew it. Please grant me the strength, organization, support, resources, patience, good humor, flexibility, abundance of love and nurturing to nourish, emotionally and physically, our growing family. Please allow Gary to have a beautiful father/son relationship since his own was taken from him at too young of an age, and we know how wonderful he is with Emma and Eden.
I pray for a peace and a knowing that I am following the right “red thread” to our son. I pray that one day, when I see all my children laughing together, that I will look back on any worry or concern as just something I had to pass through to get where I needed to get.
Please help me with the momentum to finish up all my years worth of photo albums since, when we meet Baby Boy Karp, the shutter clicks will go on and on and on. Please remind me that the timing of everything, whether slow or fast, is exactly as it needs to be in order for us all to be brought together.
Today, Eden had a homework assignment with me. Only they don’t call it homework, they call it “Together Time.” She had to tell me the reasons she thinks she is special. She named all the people in our family as special, and then said “And our baby brother who will get to us one day is very special.” I go around thinking my kids don’t know too much about what is going on (as I haven’t officially said it yet) — but who am I kidding? The trajectory of our lives, I guess, has been made very clear to them. The only remarkable thing (among many, actually) is that Emma has never once told someone who doesn’t know (including some family) that we’re getting a brother. They unconsciously know that info will come from me.
To add some melody to my thoughts and prayers, here’s a song I absolutely love. I dedicate this to Emma, Eden and the little boy who waits for us.
Love,
Me
Please disable my songlist at the bottom of the blog page so that you can hear this song. Enjoy!
Happy belated Birthday Stephanie!!!I’ve been busy with our new schedule with a first grader.I’m behind on checking blogs and hope to have a new entry on ours soon.I also pray for all those children waiting for a family.All the best,Dot
Happy belated Birthday Stephanie!!!I’ve been busy with our new schedule with a first grader.I’m behind on checking blogs and hope to have a new entry on ours soon.I also pray for all those children waiting for a family.All the best,Dot
Happy belated Birthday Stephanie!!!I’ve been busy with our new schedule with a first grader.I’m behind on checking blogs and hope to have a new entry on ours soon.I also pray for all those children waiting for a family.All the best,Dot
OK Stephanie, I’m crying now! I think I’ve heard that song before, but reading the words did me in!
Thanks for sharing!
Rose
OK Stephanie, I’m crying now! I think I’ve heard that song before, but reading the words did me in!
Thanks for sharing!
Rose
OK Stephanie, I’m crying now! I think I’ve heard that song before, but reading the words did me in!
Thanks for sharing!
Rose
Steph,
You have done it again!!! Brought me to tears! Although this month I seem to be in tears about everything…….
This is the month, one year ago I learned about my beautiful son, that I prayed for just like you are doing. Just like me, all good will come your way. I feel it with all my heart.
I pray for you and Lea everyday….
Love ya,
Carolyn
Steph,
You have done it again!!! Brought me to tears! Although this month I seem to be in tears about everything…….
This is the month, one year ago I learned about my beautiful son, that I prayed for just like you are doing. Just like me, all good will come your way. I feel it with all my heart.
I pray for you and Lea everyday….
Love ya,
Carolyn
Steph,
You have done it again!!! Brought me to tears! Although this month I seem to be in tears about everything…….
This is the month, one year ago I learned about my beautiful son, that I prayed for just like you are doing. Just like me, all good will come your way. I feel it with all my heart.
I pray for you and Lea everyday….
Love ya,
Carolyn
Stephanie,
I just love reading your blog and seeing what your thoughts are about your adoption. This was a lovely post!
Stephanie,
I just love reading your blog and seeing what your thoughts are about your adoption. This was a lovely post!
Stephanie,
I just love reading your blog and seeing what your thoughts are about your adoption. This was a lovely post!
Beautifully written, and yes- I’m sure Emma and Eden have figured out a lot more than you think! What you wrote is very similar to the thoughts I constantly had throughout our pre-travel time.
We will continue to keep all five of you all in our thoughts and prayers.
And I love that song. One of my all time favorites.
Beautifully written, and yes- I’m sure Emma and Eden have figured out a lot more than you think! What you wrote is very similar to the thoughts I constantly had throughout our pre-travel time.
We will continue to keep all five of you all in our thoughts and prayers.
And I love that song. One of my all time favorites.