My father’s spirits seem improved, more matter of fact. He will most likely have surgery after Thanksgiving. There is much to be grateful for this Thanksgiving.
Yesterday I ran into my husband’s very good friend whom I have not seen in 11 months. He later told my husband that his wife is pregnant with their 4th child. God bless her — how does she do it? I used to wish for 4 children but the idea of pregnancy and it’s processes does not sit well with me. I have been extremely ill for both of my pregnancies and put on medication (that chemotherapy patients take for nausea) for this last one as I was vomiting and tearing my esophogus for almost the full 9 months. Pregnancy, this wonderful miracle, debilitates me. With the age my children are now and with their specific emotional needs that are unique to us, plus my recent discovery of some hormonal issues that are just now getting regulated with medication, I am finally at a place to say that I physically feel very well for the first time in 3.5 years. But even still, hearing about a miraculous pregnancy, knowing I have 3 friends about to give birth shortly, does give me pause. But then my mind wanders to my own thoughts of this special secret we have not shared fully yet. Yes, birth is truly is a miracle and I do feel blessed to have experienced the miracle of pregnancy and birth twice in my life. And now I’m eager to experience a different kind of miracle.
Well, on the update side, Gary did talk to his friend yesterday about our possible plans. I guess it was tit for tat. You tell me you are expected your 4th child and I’ll tell you that we are considering adoption. Gary did say that “we” are considering, not what I had feared he would say “Stephanie wants …” His friend said that adoption is something he could never do, “it’s not his own kid, etc etc” and I was amazed at the pretty impactful and smart responses Gary gave. (I was not there but Gary told me what he said.)
Two days ago a dresser for my youngest daughter arrived from Pottery Barn Kids. I love that store. It is an espresso brown. Looks beautiful with her pink room. But will also look equally lovely with a beautiful blue. My two girls are also eager to get bunk beds and share a room soon. I am putting this off for safety reasons now, but in terms of space in this small but cozy and warm house of ours, I think we can make this work.
