“Occasionally in life, God presents a path that requires a leap of faith to travel. The trailhead looks very promising, but the trail further on is certain to be arduous and long. Those of us on the trail together are going to have to make it up as we go. Yet the vision toward which we travel is life-giving, and the journey will stretch the soul.”
by Neil Hamilton
We’re giving it some time. My husband and I had a talk last night. As resistent as he was to this idea at first, he is also drawn to the amazingness of it. He is eager to make a decision either way. We have decided to revisit this together at the new year. And he decided that on Jan. 10, his birthday, we will know what choice we will make about how to proceed. I just want to commit either way. The limbo is hard. It’s stagnant.
Today my daughter drew me a picture of our family. I said “There are 5 people, who is the other person?” Well, I should have noticed right away that the 5th person was tinier than all the others. She said “That is our new baby brother. Shhh … don’t tell anyone.” You can bet that drawing will be saved as we decide what we’ll be doing. If I knew it was going to work out okay, I’d say yes in a second. It’s the unknowns, the variables, and frankly, the lack of support that I am receiving from people from whom I’d love it most, that make me pull the reins back a little.
I have a few calls in this week to a few families I discovered. We’ll chat and after that I’m going to lay low for a good few weeks to let things settle and see what thoughts fill the spaces of my head.
Goodnight!
S
